I Never Miss It...

I never miss Tallahassee until I have someone from there with me in Orlando. Trevin was in town for his brother's graduation, and we went out tonight. And of course as the fate's would have it, at Ibar they played every song that has ever meant anything to us. And it was awesome. And I never miss being there until things like that happen.

I miss dancing 7 days a week for sure. I miss being able to just walk up to a play and dance like we've got  no tomorrow. I miss super cheap beer, and people who know us just because we're there so often. I miss hearing my favorite song and my reaction being to jump up on stage. Not ever place has a stage, and sometimes it really bothers me. Not being the center of everyone's attention? I still find it weird.

But talking with him there are things that I don't miss. I don't miss spending money everyday. I don't miss being up at all hours of the night and then trying to do anything productive the next day. I don't miss not having money because all I would do is throw it to the other side of the bar. I don't miss walking home alone, because I know how dangerous it was, and how lucky I was every time.

But I do miss those Tally kids. I miss being able to call anyone and at least one person being down to do at least something. I miss Katie and I deciding at midnight that it would be a good time for me to come get her to go dancing because it's 2 for 1 until close. I miss being asked is Trevin gay because they want to know if it's ok for them to hit on him. I miss being the go to girl. Meaning I miss being the one that people would turn to for anything. How are you able to dance like that, how do you know so many people, how can you drink so much, how are you here all the time. I miss knowing people.

But I've also been drinking, so I'm not sure if I actually believe any of these things, but in the moment and time, this is what I'm thinking about, so it matters.

Thursday was an awesome day. Although it wasn't too busy at work, I was just in an awesome mood, so nothing could break that.

Friday will be all about getting stuff ready for the anniversary and just having a relaxing day off.

Hope everyone is being able to smile for at least one thing that has happened within the last 24 hours.

Happiness is knowing that after all that good time, there is nothing to worry about.

Love me like I love knowing Friday night might be just as good as tonight...