A Few...

And when they ask us where we've been, we'll tell them the truth. And when they stare back with shock all over their faces we'll smile. And while they demand to know the details and how it all began, we'll tell them, leaving out nothing because we'd never want to disappoint. And they'll be happy for us and we, well, we'll continue to smile.

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She wouldn't let him hold her hand. Hand holding was the first sign of forever, and when she says forever she means until something better comes along. She was scared and she hated being at someone else's whim. So for now she'll keep her hands deep in her pockets or else up in the air, cause that's where they are when she's dancing.

Almost Is Worse Than No...

You were almost first.
We were almost lovers.
She almost left him.
He almost kissed her.

They almost forgot her.
They almost crashed.
They almost got to the top.
They almost passed the mark.

He almost blinked.
She almost gave in.
We almost touched.
You were almost first.

Move...

"Just move," she told him. "Close your eyes and just move." He closed his eyes, and slowly started to move his legs. He had no idea what he was doing but he really liked her and wanted her to see that he could be fun.

"I can't do it," he said to her as he put his hands on his hips. "I just feel silly, I can't do it like you." She smiled as she walked over to him. "How do you dance like that and not care about anything going on around you." She stood on her toes and kissed him on the cheek.

"When I'm dancing that is the only moment in the world that matters. The song that is playing is my favorite song, and is playing only for me. When you see me moving it's my soul trying with all its might to escape. My soul hates not being able to show off how happy it is. I dance because my feet have no other way to smile. I dance because sometimes words just aren't enough and you just have to express yourself. I dance to prove that I can stand alone in a crowd and that be ok."

They Walked Together Hand In Hand...

When we are small we love making plans. They don't have to be major plans, "Want to come over this weekend for a sleepover?" "Did you finish the homework? Can I see it" We don't notice it, but we have been making plans for as long as we can remember.

Then we grow up a bit. And we start to think into the future. We start thinking about what college we want to go to, if this boyfriend will last the summer, can I lose 10 lbs? We start making a list of things that we want out of our lives and how we should go about getting them. Of course they change, what we think we need changes from year to year even day to day, but sooner or later our list becomes solid and we are finally on the right path to what will make us the happiest.

And then it happens. There they are. Smiling our way. Making us do a double take that night. We stumble over ourselves, try to act cool but it doesn't matter, they already have us by the heart strings. Then we remember our list! You look it over and see that they don't meet everything on your list, and you begin to wonder? Is your list wrong? Is there something you missed?

Of course there was something you missed. You didn't know that they were gonna walk into your life. If you would have known that you would have never made the list in the first place. You would have just gone about your life and waited until they showed up. But who knows any of that. That's why we make lists.

And all those plans you had? Well at first it's gonna seem like they are out the window, none of this is going to plan! You didn't not expect this, how did you not know? But then you take a step back and smile, aren't surprises better anyway? If you would have known that something like this was going to happen, wouldn't you want to be surprised by it?

This is rambling. When I read it back aloud, it all just sounds like rambling. But it's happy rambling!

People are getting married left and right and I am overjoyed to see pictures from all these happy events! Some people I use to know back in the day are getting hitched, and it just makes me smile from ear to ear seeing their happiness build up, unfold in front of family and friends, and then they get to start the rest of their lives together. How can you not just melt with happiness for them.

So this is too all you happy kids out there, together, not together, dancing, not dancing, and just being content and happy with life. I've been extra excited about life lately and thought I must share.

Happiness is seeing that love is real and true and passionate and giving and so much more then we could ever know until we actaully experience it.

Love me like I love each and every moment of each and every moment.